I just smiled and nodded, all the while re-creating his afternoon meltdown yesterday that lasted 2 hours, had our entire house in chaos, the dog shaking, and all of us on edge and ready to snap. For years I have never completely understood how my child can create such complete chaos at home after school but during school, he is this different child- full of compassion, sweet sentiments, and perfect behavior. However, after talking to some other parents whose ADHD kids also have afternoon meltdowns, I think I understand it a little bit better.
See, ADHD uses Serotonin and Dopamine faster than regular brains do. Even though some ADHD medications help increase these two chemicals, kids with ADHD have been shown to use these chemicals twice as fast as usual. These two chemicals are responsible for many different responses and reactions, including happiness and attentiveness and when these levels drop, kids can experience a multitude of reactions such as out of control emotions or "zoning out."
My kid's response is out of control emotions. This results in afternoons and evenings of crying and tantrums from different results than expectations, flailing arms and legs after saying "no" to what he wants, and screaming and hysteria over situations that are relatively minor. I always shook my head, convinced that this was simply a behavioral issue, but I think it is a response to low Serotonin and Dopamine levels in his brain. I don't think he can control these emotions any more than I can control the need to correct someone's grammar- is a compulsive activity that he needs to emote out or else lose control of himself completely.
The exception of such reactions is during school. During those 8 hours, he is such a great kid! He follows directions, cleans up after himself and other children, tries so hard to follow the rules and learn what he needs to in order to be on level with everyone else. I think that since he tries for eight hours straight, never letting himself break down over a disappointment or different results, he needs to let it go somewhere and what better place then at home where everyone will continue to love him regardless?? Unconditional love and a feeling of complete safety are apparently the necessary elements to complete breakdowns and chaotic evenings.
*Big long deep sigh*
I love the kid. He is my life and my little boy, but man-oh-man, these nights are difficult to deal with day after day. Honestly, I am surprised my neighbors haven't called CPS yet with the way he screams sometimes. But I guess if it had to happen somewhere, at least it can happen here at home where, when it ends and he calms down, we can dry his tears, tell him that no matter what, we love him, and we hope tomorrow can be a better day...
I once read in some parenting magazine that the reason kids act differently at home really is just that... they work hard at controlling their behavior at school, but when they are at home, they feel safe and relaxed, so that is where they let out their worst behavior. Lucky parents! ;)
ReplyDeleteYep! Lucky us! It seems to be pretty common but it is still difficult to remember that the behavior is not actually bad behavior but the result of low chemicals in the brain, especially when he has pushed me to the limit!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for the comment!!
As a parent of a child with ADHD, I thank you for reminding me to step back, take a breath, and know that this too shall pass. Those afternoon meltdowns are absolutely the worst. I have felt like you many times- a week! Thank you also for reminding me that we are not the only family dealing with these issues. Just remember God only gives us what he knows we can handle. My mantra! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your comment! I agree that sometimes, it pays to stop and think that it will pass and it will be just a matter of time. I like your mantra and it is one of my own as well!!
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